February 2012
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palelovers asked: You have the best hair I've ever seen. So jealous
aleamilia asked: you are b-b-beautiful :)
everythingisnothingiseverything asked: OMG. YOUR HAIR!
Anonymous asked: fuck you are perfect. I want to come off anon but I am way too shy erghh :(
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This morning when I woke up for the second time, I felt like I couldn’t move without a brain zap hitting me. The withdrawals are kicking in hard now and its painful as fuck. I would not wish this on my worst enemy. My body is aching and shaking. My eyes are super sensitive to the light, they almost burn and sting. As I squint I get dizzy, I am so out of it. I can’t keep still, so...
so worthless. not good enough to be anyone’s anything
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sleeping late i hear the sad horns
of labor truck sigh
my neighbor walks by
high heels click dry
like half a proud horse downbrook
i hear somebody’s babbling i mistook
for a cavalry whispering victory
to the sparks in their kindling
but but all their green wood’s wet and unmet
as of yet by the gases of flame
pressing again the pending physics
of my passed down last name...
Codeine bellyyyyy
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I actually can’t handle trying to get better and having you constantly push me into the fucking ground without even knowing. Fucking fuck fuck
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when you think every indirect post ever is aimed at you and you just want to hide under a rock and die
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Don’t act like you know me, I guess you haven’t all along.
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Today I started my new dosage, and am pretty proud of going from 225mg to 75mg of venlafaxine and 800mg of sodium valproate to none in less than a couple of months. It has been a huge struggle to be stable, especially with the withdrawals. It sucks but I’m so looking forward to not feeling numb or blank all the time, to no more withdrawals, no more absolute dependency on eight-ten tablets a...
Inherently defective
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And your back hurt, and your neck hurt, and you smoking heavy
And I sit next to you, and I lecture you ‘cause those are deadly
And then you ask shit and we argue about spending money on bullshit
And you tell me I’m just like my father, my one button, you push it
Now it’s “Fuck you, I hate you, I’ll move out in a heartbeat”
And I leave out and you call me, you tell me that your sorry
You love...
I will never be good enough
I wish I wasnt such a pushover, a characteristic intrinsic of my mother that I have inherited. Also worrying constantly but I just think that’s part of my ~anxiety~ issues. Yay.
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Give you the gun. Blow me away.
holding back since 1992
first full day of uni tomorrow and i couldn’t get to sleep if my life depended on it. stressville aus. surprised the tears haven’t come rolling out yet but im too numb to produce any lol life..